Down

It's cold.. Frozen actually.. I need a hug, not any hug, but that one, you know? Yeah, this one..

I'm feeling sick and a little of tiredness is always part of all the smiles I put on my face. But nowadays they are more than 90% of it, and I fear it'll take the last 10% of hapiness and fun.

On Fryday I waited for him until my sleepness take control of my body, which was happening gradually since the start of the day. Somehow I know it was not by purpose, but it makes me feel kind of forgotten. I don't even know why, but can't blame him.. it's nobody's fault. Just the consequence of falling in love with a person that lives as far from me as that shining star I wish I could reach, at least that's what it seems to be.

Yesterday was the worst birthday ever. The reason? Everything. My family is different from what I thought. My friends weren't here with me. There was no hug from that special one. Well, the unique person that saved this day was Cezar. And even though I love rainy days, the rain yesterday couldn't help.

Singing today was easier than I thougt it would be, but just singing, cause life is so messy. From the moment I wake up to the time I go to bed, people don't stop criticizing, and filling my day with pressure. It doesn't matter the way of pressure, but they do. I wish he could be here, by my side and right now, so I wouldn't be writing depressive things, but involved in his warm hug. I can almost smell his perfume, except by the fact I don't know what his perfume is like.. but as I could hear his voice 'There's no limit to my imagination..'

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There could be no tomorrow, so that this moment would last forever.. the moment you appear and make my heart jump or something like this.. for now it's the best feeling I could wait for.